I know there are horrible things going on right now and it just makes my heart hurt. I understand that I will never understand but it is just so terrible what is going on right now and that atrocious things like this are occurring in this day and age it is 2020 not 1820: not that is was ok then either just you get my point. Sign the petitions learn all you can donate if you are able everything helps even if the most you can do is educate those around you. I am going to link to recourse that have things compiled in a way that is less overwhelming.

This resource has many links as well as some for countries outside of the US

https://blacklivesmatters.carrd.co/

This link also includes alot of good information with their links

https://www.adhoc.fm/post/black-lives-matter-resources-and-funds/

It feels super trivial and ridiculous to post anything about makeup right now but it is nice to have that quick ten minute fluffy break to get away from things and let your brain relax so if you need that break right now this post is here.

I can’t believe the year is half over and we’ve all spent half of it at home. I used up an absurd amount of makeup just using up random dregs of products that I had been holding on to. Also alot of candles since I’m home all day burning them.

Skincare (16)

NuFace Prep-n-Glow Dual Sided Cloth (2) these are my favorite face wipes I wish they weren’t so expensive. They are really tough and exfoliated but don’t leave my skin feeling sore or stripped.

Repurchase: Yes

Skinceuticals Phyto Corrective Gel this is supposed to be hydrating gel for soothing and irritation. It was fine but it really wasn’t any different than a less expensive hydrating serum or hyaluronic acid would be so definitely not worth the price.

Repurchase: No

Fortune Cookie Soap Company Facial Cleansing Oil in Symbol of Hope I am sad that this is gone now FCS cleansing oils have been my makeup remover/first cleanse of choice for like 3 years now and this is the last one I had in my stash and I won’t let myself buy a new one until I have worked through the other ones I have but I am really heartbroken. I love these oils they don’t sting my eyes they take off all my makeup they don’t leave my skin feeling oily or stripped or weird they don’t break me out they smell good they don’t foam but they also emulsify just enough I Just love these so much.

Repurchase: Yes

Soo Ae Donkey Milk Skin Gel Mask these are meh they feel nice they are nourishing but they also leave me feeling super super sticky.

Repurchase: No

Innisfree Pore Clearing Clay Mask I don’t feel like this did anything and it was really sticky. It was also super annoying to get out of the jar because the mouth of the jar was thinner than the base. Stuff like that is such a pet peeve.

Repurchase: No

Cure Natural Aqua Gel so this showed up in the mail two samples of it I don’t like it it is that really chunky exfoliator that balls up to pretend it is your skin coming off but it isn’t it’s a normal chemical exfoliator also I just didn’t like it I don’t think it did anything. I just wanted them out of my life with out wasting them.

Repurchase: No

Estee Lauder Advanced Night Repair Synchronized Recovery Complex II I don’t feel like this did anything at all.

Repurchase: No

H20+ Oasis Ultra Hydrating Cream this was a nice gel-cream I liked it but it wasn’t anything overly special but if by some absurd circumstance I ran out of moisturizer and this wasn’t that expensive and available I would use it again it was light and non-sticky which I really appreciate.

Repurchase: Maybe

Garnier Skin Active Moisture Bomb The Super Hydrating Mattifying Mask I love these masks and with coupons I get two for free every month at CVS so I have tons I use them often I they are really hydrating they feel great they wear well they have so much serum in them that I can save it in a jar and get two or three more uses out of them highly recommend.

Repurchase: Yes

Mario Badescu Spray in Orange Blossom this is the only scent I like from this line you can only get it at Ulta. I love the sage and the orange it’s a decent spray and its cheap but it isn’t really doing any skincare benefits like the more expensive sprays that I like and use but this is my filler spray for when I don’t want to spend money on the pricey sprays.

Repurchase: Yes

Shangpree Peppermint Mask these are discontinued I don’t even know where they came from but they are fine they dry up really fast when I am wearing them so it is like a 5 or 10 minute mask.

Repurchase: No

Fortune Cookie Soap Company Charcoal Face Cleanser in Cutest Monster Face this was great I kept it in my shower because this is a pretty intense cleanser and that is where I wash my face when it is actually dirty with like sweat and grime from being outside or working stuff like that. It was good but I am not overly attached to it. I did like that it was cinnamon scented but that it didn’t bother my skin or like sting my eyes that is really important to me.

Repurchase: No

Clinique Dramatically Different Moisturizing Gel I don’t really like this moisturizer it is really stick feels heavy but doesn’t moisturize at all.

Repurchase: No

Chanel Hydra Beauty Micro Serum this was one use I can’t really say if it did anything but it sure is expensive.

Repurchase: No

Freeman’s Pore Clearing Peel-Off Mask with Volcanic Ash there was actually two uses in this little pouch so I split it with my girlfriend. This peeled off really clean In one piece with out ripping my skin which was super great. It did clear up my really freaking out skin a bit.

Repurchase: Maybe

Random (1)

Sweet & Shimmer Face & Body Mini Wipes in Frosted Berry I love these for swatches I buy them after Christmas every year from Ulta for super cheap. They work really well and they smell really good. I would not use these on my face but for swatches or like a body refreshing wipe they are great.

Repurchase: Yes

Home Scents (6)

Bath and Body Works Wallflower in Blueberry Sugar this was not as good as the candle the scent was not as strong.

Repurchase: No

Bath and Body Works Mint Chocolate Candle this was unimpressive it smelled nice it had an ok scent throw but it wasn’t as chocolatey or minty as I wanted.

Repurchase: No

Bath and Body Works Blueberry Pie Candle love their blueberry scented candles they always have a great throw and smell really good. Even from this little candle.

Repurchase: Yes

Bath and Body Works Vanilla Cola Candy Candle this was super fun it really did smell like those Coke bottle gummy candies and I love those. But the scent throw wasn’t great. Fun but not memorable.

Repurchase: No

Scentsational Tangelo Lime Candle this was fine it smelled nice it didn’t burn as long as I would expect a giant candle to burn for but it still burned a long time and it burned clean to the bottom which is always really nice.

Repurchase: Maybe

Swan Creek Candle Co. Drizzle Melts in Roasted Espresso I love these wax melts so much I won them all at an arcade (weird I know) and then I found where you can buy them because I only have like 3 packs left. They melt for a while and they have really great scent throw. This smells straight up like espresso and it is so nice I love it.

Repurchase: Yes

Lip (3)

Chapstick Medicated this wasn’t that good I don’t feel like it medicated of healed my lips and it wasn’t moisturizing.

Repurchase: No

LipSmackers in Oh-Boy!-senberry I really loved this it was super moisturizing and it was a great flavor. I am really impressed LipSmackers.

Repurchase: Yes, if is still exists

Glossier Balm Dotcom In Mint I really loved this I love those Vaseline type balms that don’t taste or feel like Vaseline. The mint was very cooling and I could feel it for a long time on my lips. I also didn’t feel like I needed to reapply this balm every 5 minutes which is good. I cut the top open so I could get every last use out of this because it is an expensive balm. I would be very interested in trying some of the other flavors.

Repurchase: Yes

Makeup (7)

Make Up For Ever Aqua XL Eye Pencil in M-10 this was a good eye pencil it was very black and decently waterproof. It is just too dry now and too short to sharpen anymore. I don’t know that I would spend $21 dollars on it because there are other plain black waterproof eye liners.

Repurchase: No

Grande Cosmetics Grande Mascara this was really nice. I was very skeptical and did not think I would see lash growth but I actual did I mean it was minimal but it was visible. It was also a really nice lengthening mascara it made my lashes look so so long. Very smudgey.

Repurchase: Maybe

Petite ‘n’ Pretty Fully Feathered Volumizing Mascara I didn’t want to like this at all because the marketing story matched with the price sorta annoys me but I am not going to really get into it, it just sorta seems money grabby veiled as trying to be wholesome. This was a nice mascara it was really was really full and fluffy but it was really smudgey which isn’t great but it was super easy to wash off so pros and cons.

Repurchase: No

Fenty Beauty Pro Filt’r Soft Matte Longwear Fouondation in 220 this is a weird one I have a like/hate relationship with this it is so matte and doesn’t feel very comfortable it is really dry and heavy and looks that way in person. But in photos it looks really really smooth and nice I wish I could buy it in this little size to keep for just when I am doing really glam photo makeup but I don’t really want a full size. This is also “my perfect” match but it really isn’t I think a shade or two up with neutral undertones would be so so much better on me.

Repurchase: I don’t know

Shiseido Controlled Chaos Mascara Ink in Black Pulse 01 I hate when I love an expensive mascara but this was so good. It was that wild all over the place lash look that I like with a lot of my loks but it also made my lases look really long and full. This is very clumpy though so if you don’t like clumps on your lashes this is not for you.

Repurchase: Yes

Nyx Vivid Brights Liquid Liner in Vivid Escape I loved these vivid brights because for awhile they were the only cheap and easily accessible colored liquid liners but now there are others and Nyx added colors to their Epic wear line which is ten times better than this line. These are sort of a defunct product that they should probably get rid of now.

Repurchase: No

Josie Maran Surreal Skin Argan Finishing Balm in Etheric this is weird. First of all it isn’t a finishing product it’s like a primer. It is also kinda drying but makes you look really dewy and shimmery and a bit greasy. This shade? is like a translucent iridescent pink. It looks nice under matte foundation or when I am going for that really wet editorial type look but it is a strange product. I have 2 more tubs of this, I got two for free and then one in a sub box so I had almost a full size amount but it is not something I need.

Repurchase: No

Lotion (1)

Fortune Cookie Soap Company Whipped Cream in Marshmallow Dreams the scent on this was so so good it was like marshmallow fruit loops I loved it so much.

Repurchase: Yes

Haircare (4)

Fortune Cookie Soap Company Olive You Berry Much Leave-In Conditioner I don’t love leaves I feel like they don’t give me the moisture I want in my hair but I use them any way since I have them. This smelled nice but I went through it very very fast.

Repurchase: No

OGX Orchid Oil Color Protect Oil this wasn’t the moist moisturizing oil and it didn’t so much add shine as as a dry looking grease which is weird but it did actually do a lot to protect my hair color from UV rays shockingly so I have mixed feelings about that but for the price of $7 This could be worth picking up for like beach days and such to give a little protection my expensive and not very long lasting haircolors.

Repurchase: Maybe

Bumble and bumble Bb, Hairdresser’s Invisible Oil Cleansing Oil-Crème Duo I hated this it is supposedly for dry hair but it was so drying and so stripping and the clear soap and the conditioning crème don’t dispense at the same rate so the experience is different every time and this was a very small bottle I knew that but it also takes a lot of product to wash my hair with it this was overall terrible. I haven’t really liked much from bumble and bumble it might just not be a brand for my hair.

Repurchase: No

Olaplex No 3 I hate that this works because it is expensive it takes a lot of product I only got two uses out of this bottle it does make my hair feel healthier and more smooth but it doesn’t add moisture or shine or anything.

Repurchase: Probably when I need it but I wouldn’t keep it on hand

Declutter (2)

Elemis Pro-Collagen Marine Cream this has roses in it and I didn’t know and got a bad allergic reaction so this has to go.

Helios Luminor Nail Polish in Livin’ Lovely this is way to light of a color for me it almost looks like there is something wrong with my nail because it is like the same tone as my skin even though it’s obviously not the same color.

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I don’t feel like I used that much or anything this month even though I did I think its just the general malaise of how self isolation is feeling.

Total This Month: 40

Total: 208

Approx Value This Month: $399.93

Approx Paid This Month: $101.47

Approx Total Value: $1751.28

Approx Total Paid: $371.83

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Happy Quarantine or Self-Isolation or what ever we are calling it now. I have been so so productive my house has never been cleaner I have reorganized closets that I have wanted to organize for over a year. All this to keep myself from going completely stir crazy. How are you all doing? I have also been masking so much since I have the time its nice. I am on track for the year with my goal but this month I actually felt short of the monthly average I need but I was so over the first two months that all is well on that front for now.

Skincare (16)

BioRepublic Green Tea Detox Mask this was nice enough it made my skin feel good and look a little less congested and brighter. Sheet mask are hard because even if they work and are nice so are most of them so unless I love it, I’m not going out of my way to find them.

Repurchase: Eh Maybe

Perricone MD Cold Plasma Plus+ Neck & Chest Broad Spectrum 25 I don’t need a dedicated expensive neck specific cream but it was fine. A bit thick but not awful.

Repurchase: No

Biossance Squalane + Omega Repair Cream this is a fine moisturizer I love how cool and creamy it feels but it is a bit thick for my liking.

Repurchase: No

Ulta Beauty Strawberries & Champagne Hydrating Glitter Peel Off Mask this really did smell like champagne which I wasn’t expecting but the scent dissipated quickly. I really didn’t like this mask at all. There was glitter in it but it was minimal my main problem with this is that it never dried for me to be able to peel it off and it was so sticky and hard to get off. I have had good luck with Ulta mask in the past but this was not good.

Repurchase: No

Yes to Super Blueberries Recharging Greek Yogurt & Probiotics Mud Mask this was so thick and stick I couldn’t even get it spread over my skin.

Repurchase: No

Soo Ae Donkey Milk Skin Gel Mask this is very hydrating and nourishing but also very sticky. I don’t like that overly gelled sticky feeling it leaves on my skin but if you have drier skin this may be great for you. I don’t hate it enough to use up what I have but I would not repurchase:

Repurchase: No

Pacifica Crystal Lit Moon Oil this is supposed to be a guess a rejuvenating oil with lavender and blue tansy but for some reason there’s a ton of glitter in it for no damn reason and it left my skin feeling congested and blue and glittery! I ended up using it as a body oil on my legs and it was pretty and shimmery but definitely not a serious skincare product.

Repurchase: No

Purlisse Watermelon Energizing Marshmallow Peel Off Mask this wasn’t great but it wasn’t terrible either. It was so incredibly sticky that it was hard to spread around on my face to get an even layer. It smelled like watermelon candy which didn’t bother me but it you are sensitive this probably would bother you. For a peel off mask it wasn’t too painful either, but it did have glitter in it which makes this a total no for me. This left my skin looking brighter and feeling softer but also really dry.

Repurchase: No

NuFace Prep-n-Glow Dual Sided Cloth these are my favorite face cloths ever them make my skin feel nice and exfoliated and clean and glowing I really hate how expensive they are so that I end up saving them as special treats.  I’ll use my $10 Macy’s coupon to get the travel size pack for free which is the only way I can bear to buy them at $2 dollars a wipe.

Repurchase: Yes

Strivectin TL Advanced Tightening Neck Cream I didn’t like this it was so thick but not spreadable so it was really hard to rub in which I feel like would be more damaging to your skin over time then helpful.

Repurchase: No

Leaders Pore-Scaling Black Aqua I don’t know that this did that much I just really can’t say. I have a few more so maybe I’ll notice something next time I try.

Repurchase: No

Double Dare OMG! 4 in 1 Kit Zone System Mask my skin needed this the day I used it and I really liked it. It was a multi mask so it came with under eye gels, a charcoal mask for oily spots a kaolin clay mask for the more normal parts of your skin and then a moisture cream to put on after you take the masks off. I really loved it my skin felt a lot smoother and soothed after. The only thing is I can and often do multi mask like this with all the mask I have so this is more convenience over necessity.

Repurchase: Maybe

Yes To Pore Perfection Paper Mask this mask was really small and did nothing. I really don’t love the Yes To line. I have like maybe 3 or 4 items from them left that I just need to use up and get them out.

Repurchase: No

Whole Foods Cotton Cupra Hydrating Coconut Mask this was a very drippy mask which I don’t love. It felt nice on though very cooling and soothing but did absolutely nothing, not even hydration once I took it off.

Repurchase: No

Peter Thomas Roth Cucumber Gel Mask I don’t get this mask it felt cooling and moist but left my skin a bit tight. I don’t understand I feel like this mask was trying to do too much and failed.

Repurchase: No

Dermal Wine Collagen Essence Mask I really liked this it really hydrated and plumped my skin when it was in a dehydrated bad place.

Repurchase: If I saw it somewhere yes

Random (3)

Daylogic Brush Cleanser this wasn’t a great soap it took extra effort to get stains out of brushes.

Repurchase: No

Degree Motion Sense Deodorant Fresh Energy favorite deodorant I I like the scent the feeling and the performance.

Repurchase: Yes

Aquaphor Oinment I love Aquaphor I use it for so many thing lip balm. To heal chaffing or dry spots. For tattoos just an all-time loved product. Life essential.

Repurchase: Always and Forever

Home Scents (5)

Swan Creek Candle Co. Drizzle Melt in Valencia Orange & Grapefruit this is one of my favorite wax brands because they have great scent throw. While the scent on this was so nice and bright and citrusy which I love it wasn’t as strong as their sweeter scents.

Repurchase: Probably not

Bath and Body Works Strawberry Pound Cake Candle this smelled so good but I could hardly smell it while it was burning. I wanted this to be like my strawberry shortcake wonderland smelling dream candle and it just wasn’t.

Repurchase: No, Jar’s cute though

Trader Joe’s Lemon Cookie Scented Candle this was really nice it smelled like iced lemon cookies it was yummy it burned along time for such a small candle I don’t like that there was so much wax left in the bottom and on the sides I like for candles to burn a bit cleaner than this one did but for $4 it was good.

Repurchase: Yes

Bath and Body Works Wallflower in Fresh Orange this was a nice orange scent but it was one of the wallflowers that isn’t as strong and I prefer the really strongly scented ones.

Repurchase: No

Bath and Body Works Blackcurrant Vanilla Candle this is a much more fancy sexy scent then I would normally burn but I really really enjoyed it. Normally I would have been disappointed in the scent throw of this one but since it was such a strong dominate scent the weaker scent through worked in its favor. I also really like the jar it came in the frosted purple glass is super pretty.

Repurchase: Maybe

Lip (3)

Lipsmacker Mickey Mouse Ch-ear-ful Cherry I liked the cherry flavor of this but it was very very read and really was messy looking on my lips. Some Lipsmackers are really waxy and some are smooth this was one of the smooth ones and I appreciated that. I got a whole pack of different flavors when Target had that Mickey Mouse collection.

Repurchase: No

Laniege Lip Sleeping Mask in Vanilla I like these and they are very hydrating in that more thick gel type of way but they are not life changing. I did not like this flavor as much as the previous flavors I have tried it was kinda bland.

Repurchase: No

Skyn Iceland Berry Lip Fix this is one of those things that I loved when I had a sample of but the full size didn’t live up to how much I liked it in the smaller size. You could kinda feel taste the berry and the texture more in the small size the full size was more smooth as well as being more sloppy to apply since more would come out of the bigger applicator.

Repurchase: No

Makeup (3)

Urban Decay 24/7 Slide On Glide On Eyeliner in LSD I love these liners but LSD is just not the liner for me. It was always a drier formula because of the glitter and it has completely gotten to dry too use now. It was too dark of a blackened blue for me and I wasn’t super fond of the glitter. They are great liners in general though.

Repurchase: No

Mac Eyebrows in Spiked they have since repackaged this to have a spoolie which is great it was pretty annoying that this didn’t have one. This is a really stiff non retractable pencil and it took me awhile to get used to if but I think I like it better than a softer pencil. I am using a softer pencil now but we shall see. This color was a bit to warm for me I would try a darker cooler shade probably Stud if I bought it again.

Repurchase: Maybe

Fenty Pro Filt’r Instant Retouch Primer this was nothing special as a primer it was pretty sticky so it held on to my foundation well. But it didn’t blur or fill pores or hydrate or anything I would want it to do.

Repurchase: No

Lotion (1)

Hempz Candy Cane Crush Triple Moisture Herbal Whipped Body Crème this was not as thick as the other lotions that had come in this scent. It was more mint then candy cane which was really refreshing. It wasn’t that great though I felt like ten minutes after I put it on I needed to reapply.

Repurchase: No

Bodycare (2)

Lush Marmalade Jelly Bomb this took forever to break up and dissolve in the tub. It smelled good I love citrus things and turned the water so orange but unfortunately this left my skin really dry.

Repurchase: No

Up & Up Epsom Salt For Soaking in Eucalyptus & Spearmint this is not as good as the Dr. Teals one it claims to be comparable to at all. It didn’t have as strong of a scent and didn’t dissolve as well. It also didn’t feel as relaxing for my muscles as the Dr. Teals ones do.

Repurchase: No

Haircare (3)

Marc Anthony Repairing Macadamia Oil Deep Rescue Conditioning Treatment I thought I was going to love this when I was in the shower but it did not agree with my hair after it dried. It made my hair feel really silky soft, but it gave me a lot of frizz and fly-aways. It didn’t leave me with that lovely shiny glossy just washed hair feeling.

Repurchase: No

Pure Brazilian Deep Conditioning Masque this was meh its didn’t do anything to my hair at all.

Repurchase: No

Tony Moly Angel Glow Ring Hair Mask they don’t make this any more which is sad because it is a really nice hair mask even if it is a bit labor intensive. You put a mask on freshly washed wet hair and then sit with the provided shower cap on for twenty minutes then rinse it out. It makes my hair so glossy and smooth.

Repurchase: I would if it comes back

Declutter (5)

Covergirl Sponge this is hard as a rock and feels like tough rubber. It does not blend well or wash well this is awful.

She Makeup Abracadabra Mega Volume Mascara there is so little mascara in this tube that you can’t cover the brush and it is really gunky.

AOA Studio Fat Lash Mascara this is just too light and natural and too much work to coat the lashes.

Nyx Born to Glow Liquid Illuminator in Gleam this is just chucky and patchy and does not look great on the skin. I am pretty sure they have reformulated this but I have no interest in trying it. Essie Nail Polish in Viva Antiguai I am really not a nail polish person but I have a few bottles and I am trying to paint my toe nails and this I didn’t like. The color was not as bright on as I thought it would be and it was really liquidy and if a polish needs more than two coats its an automatic no for me.

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That was a whole lot of big stuff this month. Pretty good I think. I have to use up roughly $291 worth of product per month to be on track for the year I was like $20 something short this month but I was way over the past two month so I am still ahead which is great.

Total This Month: 41

Total: 132

Approx Value This Month: $269.83

Approx Paid This Month: $57.48

Approx Total Value: $1006.23

Approx Total Paid: $201.95

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